VAYA CON DIOS, F@660T

Things You Don’t Say

You don’t say how much you’ve been looking. You don’t say that you asked him questions to see his mouth move. You don’t say you’ve been keeping eye contact because you can’t bear to break it. You don’t say you’ve been watching his hands and wondering how they would feel, in your hands, on you.

You do say, “Can I kiss you?” finally, when you can’t stand it.

2 months ago

Drynuary!

So, I’m not going to get into anything too personal, but as of January 4th I decided to do Drynuary and abstain from alcohol. Here’s this chart that I took from The Awl.

Week Three

Alcohol Consumed (units)
Four. I slipped up during a trip to Boston this past weekend.

Days Without Booze
16 total, not consecutive. NO WAY I’M STARTING BACK AT ONE.

Disposition
Grizzly

Irritability (scale of 0-10)
11

Outlook
Without the constant barrage of beer calories, I’ve already noticed that I’ve lost some bloat around the chin(s) and spare tire area. So I feel good about that.

Shakes
Don’t fill that cup of coffee all the way to the top, please.

Smugness (scale of 0-10)
7. I’m just now noticing the smelly breath and spit-talking of drunks. I don’t judge, though, because my sober breath probably stinks and I spit when I talk anyway.

Sounder Sleeping
Once I’m able to quiet my brain and get to sleep, yes.

Substitute Activities
Comedy events outside of the Gayborhood.

4 months ago

No, the Lana Del Rey imbroglio points at something potentially worse: an impatience with performance and a lack of trust in self-reinvention. Del Rey, after all, isn’t the first to take more than one shot at finding a pop persona that worked. Imagine a 1969 Internet reacting to David Bowie’s breakthrough with “Space Oddity”—a single as mannered, languid, and beguiling as “Video Games,” and a performer as in love with artifice and with plenty of past to dig up. Would his career have benefited from blogs tearing apart his inconsistency and torrents bundling his hit with “The Laughing Gnome”?

Lana Del Rey Lights Up the Internet

Tom Ewing makes a very important point. Theatricality and reinvention are crucial parts of music and the arts — demanding “authenticity” is reactionary and mostly poisonous to creativity.

(via perpetua)

4 months ago -

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RT @PhillyGayCalen: Read the new blog post - Happy New Queers! http://t.co/rW6v2AUz

5 months ago

2012 is going to be a cakewalk. All I have to do is find a job and figure out my life. Mere trifles!

5 months ago

"... if you have to try to be honest then you have to be completely honest... and then you have to take every gun in the world and aim them at yourself."

5 months ago

One thing I learned, between addiction and depression? Depression a lot worse. Depression ain’t something you just get off of. You can’t get clean from depression. Depression be like a bruise that never goes away. A bruise in your mind. You just got to be careful not to touch where it hurts. It always be there, though.

Jeffrey Euginides, from The Marriage Plot

5 months ago

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I don’t know who thought that a bout of depression would make a good Christmas present, but I would appreciate if the responsible party would please take it back and give me some patterned socks instead.

5 months ago

In 2012 I resolve to stop fishing for compliments, and start pepper spraying for them instead. SO DOES THIS SHIRT MAKE ME LOOK FAT OR WHAT.

5 months ago

Okay. I’m ready to put on a brave face. Should I use a powder or liquid foundation?

5 months ago